Why Won't He Choose Me?
I really do. He pisses me off and clearly I piss him off.... Often.
But, more often than not, we have a great time together. And we stay together because the good times far outweigh the bad times.
That said, I feel like I can go on.
We haven't been fighting, but underneath the surface I am mad at him.
I'm mad that he hasn't taken me on a vacation, just me and him, in over a year. (A year and two months, to be approximate.) The fact that he took a weekend trip with some friends about three months ago just makes it that much worse. But, of course, I can't say anything about it. Because, don't ya know.... He "deserved" that trip and I shouldn't have the right to take that away from him.
Well... that's all fine and good except that I am pissed that he didn't take that time and money and go with me somewhere. I don't know why he doesn't get that... but he doesn't. He just knows that he "deserves to go and hang out" with his friends for a weekend here and there. And you know what? I think he deserves it, too. However. When we haven't gone a weekend getaway, or on a real bona fide vacation, in over a YEAR, I think that he should have chosen ME and not his friends. I'm SURE he doesn't see it that way... but I don't know how he couldn't see it that way.
Maybe it's a man thing. Maybe it's a Mr. Knightly thing.
Either way, I wish he would have chosen me.
If he had chosen me I would have felt important.
Instead I feel passed over. I feel not good enough.
And I hate that.
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